am i nuts?
from my best friend in response to the above question:

You are totally nuts...but not at all in a bad way. Here's my impression: you're the most intense, passionate person I know...and that's awesome...that's a huge part of what makes you who you are. Because of that, when you like someone, you REALLY like them. (The reverse is also true...think V. H.) You move way faster than they do, and you throw yourself into a relationship with a whole lot more intensity than they do. It's almost like you're speaking different languages, or different dialects, at least. So what happens is that they're moving all slow and just hanging around to see how things play out, but you tend to put gobs and gobs of meaning into everything they do (or don't do). The answer: you need someone just as passionate as you. None of this is bad, it's just the way it is.

Someday, you're going to find someone who loves you a lot. Probably not as much as I love you ( ;) ), but still a lot. :)

ok.