nor'easter
cruel cruel summer. just as the writing competition ends, and i start my part-time jobs with flexible hours, the weather turns to crap. i hear it's a nor'easter. i don't care what phenomenon is the cause of all this rain and cold temperatures (i've had to turn my heat on three nights in a row now and i'm wearing flannel pj's to bed) but it blows. it's been raining hard for what seems like a week now. and i'm not talking about drizzles. i'm talking about torrential downpours of sufficient strenght to warrant the local news broadcasters to head out to their varied locations, usually along the coast in front of a sea wall, to file their live stories.

blah.

WHY GOD WHY!?

in the meantime, i've started work. no vacation for this one. and my best friend has left this city to move back to the west coast. no friends for this one...recently, i've been struck by this deep sense that the friendships i have made this year are not as good as i thought they were. i am really different from them in some big ways, and sometimes, like when i wake up in the morning after an alcohol-soaked evening, those differences are even more apparent. i feel incredibly lonely. maybe it's just the gloomy weather combined with the fact that i was in the library for five hours yesterday, working, and i could count one my hands the number of people who were there, too, including employees.

this working for a professor business may turn out to be better in theory, but we shall see.

if only the rain could stop then i could find a nice park to study in. in the sunlight. and get a tan at the same time. oh that would be fabulous. when the sun comes out. and when the earth dries after this incredible soaking.