BRING IT
as if i don't have enough to worry about, i had an interview today and i have another one tomorrow.

today's interview was off-campus; i had to wear a suit and everything. i've realized that i'd much rather interview with strangers than with professors whose classes i might take one day. this one went pretty well. i'm kinda in a good mood now, though i'm by no means sure that they're going to take me. it just felt good to have a real interview where they ask me questions.

i remember when i used to interview for things ... i remember in high school i interviewed for peer leadership and i was so freaking nervous i said the most asinine things. really, i just couldn't think or see straight i was so nervous. i'd actually shake. i remember it was the same deal for college entrance interviews, too. i biffed ALL of them. i'm sure none of my interviews helped me get in ... because oddly enough, the only schools i got into were the ones i DIDN'T interview for, pretty much, although the only ones i did interview for were ivy league schools so i'm not sure the correlation is very clear at all.

today, i didn't really shake. my eyes didn't cross. i didn't throw up. there was a little discomfort ... like, i think my heart was beating slightly faster than usual, and i was uncomfortable, but that could have been my incredibly high-waisted pants. i know it's because i'm just used to it. and it was nice to realize that. and look back. and see how far i have come. it was totally cool.

if only i could be like this when talking to boys i like ... with practice, i suppose. ;)