fool me once, the joke's on you
again. with the out there. responding to signals, apparently mixed signals. put myself out there and put it all on the table. ambiguity yet not ambiguity. the biggest problem is feeling like a jerk. feeling will pass. i am a hamster on a wheel. i keep running, keep going, thinking it gets me somewhere. it doesn't, though. when will my little hamster brain and my hamster heart learn the lesson?